G'day team,

Well, here we are, bottom of the ninth with two outs. As I write this I am just about to start filming what will probably be my last Xena episode.

It was weird enough filming my last Herc ep (man that kinda snuck upon me,that tinge of sadness) and while I made the decision to leave the shows some months earlier, the feeling of finality I now have is palpable. When I made that decision it had nothing to do with being unhappy, quite the contrary in fact. As a performer I have always prided myself on recognizing the proper time for me to leave in spite of the fun I was having.

You might think it strange, this feeling of melancholy, in a business where everyone routinely says good-bye, but that's the cool part of it. Every ending is a mixture of sadness and excitement.

I guess that's pretty much the point of this letter.

After a great deal of thinking and consultation with my family, my agent and Beth, I have decided to let the fan club run down to it's proper end. There are many reasons for this but let me preface it by saying that from day one I have found the very notion of a fan club a very humbling thing. First of all, since the shows started my life, both personal (and I have always made sure this exists outside my job) and professional, has become fuller and more complex and so time with my family has become my most precious commodity.

Another big reason is what I touched on before. Although the club has been kind and generous enough to take an interest in other work I have done it is still inexorably linked to the Herc/Xena phenomenon. While an important and happy part of my life for the past four years, I know in my bones it is time to let it go. I guess to use the much despised psycho-babble term, I'm seeking closure in order to move on (yuk I hate when I talk like that). I've got a couple more conventions I'm committed to but that's pretty much it for me. I don't know if you folks have ever tried it, but leather pants can be a bugger to get out of.

I would like to thank you all for your interest, good wishes and support. I have appreciated it more than you can know. To everyone who has worked on this magazine and at conventions thank you, but especially thanks to Beth for her work, support and counsel, I like to think of her as a friend.

Well, team the ride's almost over, thanks it's been a trip. You bewdies.

Cheers,

Kev

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